I can't trust how I feel.

My life has been different from what I had expected and the funny thing is that I never expected or planned a "perfect" life where my ducks are in a row by age 25. Needless to say, I expected the worst but hoped for the best. But even with that mentality, life still surprises you and the hurt isn't real until you're facing it.

During those hurting times, I claim Romans 8:28 which says, "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."  Everything that has happened to me: the heartaches and heartbreaks, the tear-stained face, the seemingly endless line of questions that ran through my mind, all the hurt that was caused...there is a purpose for all of it.

Maybe you're in that hurting time right now where nothing seems like anything good can come out of it. It's a hard truth to grasp. Especially right now, nothing makes sense. By all means, have your pow wow. Release the tension and stress built up in your body because of this situation. CRY.  You are human with emotions stemming from the fall of man in the Garden of Eden. You were born with emotions. Don't let anyone tell you that you are not allowed to feel a certain way. So, have your moment. Just a moment. But when do you stop that moment? As soon as you start believing your emotions.

When the tension is released remember this: even though emotions are natural, it is not definite truth. When our emotions take the reigns of our life and we live off of how we feel, it calls for disaster. (Proverbs 28:26)
 Ask yourself this:
1. How many different emotions did you feel today? sad, irritated, gleeful, lazy, etc. 
2. Did your emotion change because of a circumstance? 
3. How do you feel now as opposed to an hour ago?
4. Could you live in a roller coaster at a theme park your whole life? 
Trust me when I say this, you will feel different. Maybe not in an hour or two, but you will. I can't trust my emotions to rule my life because it changes so much.

*You know what I love about the truth? Truth stands no matter the circumstances or time.  Unlike its competitor emotions, truth doesn't change. {God is truth}.

Stand on these truths for tonight. The very hurt that you are feeling right now is real. But like all feelings, it will go away. Don't trust your emotions. This situation is temporary. Hang in there. God promises that it will all work together for good. 

Meditate on these truths. 

John 14:27, Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

John 16:33, There things I have spoken unto you, that in me yea might have peace. In the world yea shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. 

II Corinthians 4:16-18 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen:for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal

*I will expound on this in the next post. 

Four years

It has been four years since my last post. How embarrassing it is to read through my blog posts only to find grammatical errors and sentences that don't make sense. Four years. A lot has happened in a short amount of time. I've had long days throughout those years; days that seemed like it would never end.
Soon, I will mull over my thoughts and memories. I will elaborate on the events that has occurred. I will expound on the lessons I've learned. I will reminisce. Join me as I endeavor to relive the last four years.

LocalGems.

          I honestly believe true artists aren’t measured by their talent or their creations, they are measured by their heart.  You may not have the best talent seen by man, but when people see your heart through your work, that itself is ART: because the emotion others interpret is simply raw. 

Catastrophic Event.

 A person can say that when one love it shows a glimpse of our humanity. love gives us emotions only we can feel if we loved or if we were loved. The heartbreaks or heartaches of love only pinches us in the flesh to once again bring us back to reality that we are living. Life with love we gain happiness, embarrassment, sadness and so much more.  Love without life is just simply not possible.

Life without love is a journey with no destination. As humans, we live life as a journey, though be it long or short, everyone undergoes certain things along the paths we take. Yet without love, the journey we call life is incomplete.  Love is the pathway we take to simply step aside from all the obstacles thrown at us along our journey; it is our own escape route. As humans, we long to be loved and we long to love. We cannot live life not knowing the definition of love or simply experience love because we will lose balance and will be easily overcome by the hectic situations brought upon us. We alone will carry a load of ten thousand men, as we add each cares of the world on our back with no clue what the next move would be. Endless circles will only seem to be the sensible path we take as the ongoing circumstances determine our situations. Yet with love, we are directed the path we should take. Love is the light that shines wholly in the darkest times. Those times of worry, sadness and depression seems to be only conquered though love, which can bring any person out of the deepest caves. I have heard before, “Only love changes lives”. Love is an action driven by emotion. The ones who we love should see it through what we do and say to them, where it is a mother’s love for her child or a mutual friendship. Even strangers whom we pass by, with just one friendly notation would change some kind of tune to their day.  Just simply showing someone we truly care shows that a sort of love towards them. One can say that life is a journey and love is our destination, as we take along others to our journey.

Life with love is a thrill ride. We often search for things that will thrill us, whether from jumping off an airplane at high altitudes or even by the smallest touch of our beloved one.  To have two different human beings become one through love is a difficult task, yet not an impossible one. We are constantly learning and constantly changing, physically, mentally and emotionally. The instability of each person’s desire and actions is an excitement as we discover new things about the other, what makes her or him happy, sad or mad.  The unexpected occurrences of a relationship are often the best memories we have of each other. Most often, the imperfection of a relationship with the other person is perfection itself. Simply saying, the relationship one shares with the other is perfected by the love they share. Love is a thrill ride as the ups and downs of being in love is worth it all at the end of the day. Love makes life a thrill ride as we are shown the different perspective only love amplifies through the series of feelings, thoughts and actions it follows. Life as seen through the love of others simply puts into retrospect the building blocks of life. Life is bland without the craziness of love. Without love, one cannot fully sense the beauty of life. 

As the phrase goes, ‘Love makes the world go round’. Truly, no persons can put a definite definition or emotion to the meaning of love nor can one person dictate how a person should live. But without love, life could not possibly be happily lived. Love is the energy that keeps all matters together and, without love, life cannot exist. To live without love is to not live at all. There is no life outside of love only that of a scary one. One cannot imagine life without love because the love we share and the love we feel often gives us life.  Love breathes life into us.

LyingTruth.

            At the end of the day I want you to lie to me. I want you to tell me ‘it’ll be fine’. I want to think it’s ok and that everything will be put to place. I know it’s a lie, but at the end of the day I will be fine because of those empty words. It is because of those empty words I have a reason to keep moving, a sort of motivation that only you brought out with those words. I know I will be fine with your lie, a lie you don’t believe but a  lie that seems to be the truth to me. It is because of those empty words I live. At the end of the day I will be perfectly fine and it is because those empty words I willingly fill with hope.